A Developing Interest...Christianity and Sexuality

I have come to the beautiful conclusion of a slightly evident, but developing interest of mine. One day, I just might seriously study it. This interest of mine is sexuality and religion (well more specifically Christianity first). Over the years, I have realized how oppressive christianity has become in regards to anybody that's not heterosexual. It often disturbs me. I have a lot of friends that are not straight and I love them to death. I had a conversation some time ago with one of my friends from college that is a Christian. We had a very deep discussion about one of our friends that we knew was gay, but basically waiting for them to admit to us (if that person decided to do so). Anyway, she was telling me how concerned she was because of him being gay, he won't be able to get into heaven. That statement has stayed with me for about a year now (shows how long ago that conversation was lol).

I have come to the understanding that sexuality is not a choice. Just like being black isn't a choice either. I grew up (and still attend, but that might change) in Trinity United Church of Christ, where we are "unashamedly black and apologetically Christian". I will admit I am glad I grew up there because it is important to know and understand as a black person how the world perceives you and defines you, but to also have the power to define one self. The Liberation theology (which is definitely practiced at my church) is a Christian movement in political theology which interprets the teachings of Jesus Christ in terms of a liberation from unjust economic, political, or social conditions and what better place to explore this than that Black Church. There used to be this misperception that you can't be black and a Christian because Christianity is a white man's religion, but this theology helps to re-affirm blackness. Being black and proud was and is still a struggle that needs to be overcome, but I dare to declare that there is a new struggle in the realm of Christianity, being Christian and being gay.


I am only 22 years old so life is just now beginning to unfold itself to me. One thing that I don't understand is how can people be condemned for being born gay? In all my life, I have never encountered God in a way to make me born a sinful way only to be condemned to hell. For instance, being black used to be considered bad. So does that mean I'm going to hell because my mom birthed me as a black child? Being a part of Jesus Christ's team shouldn't be oppressive, if anything you are supposed to find a new freedom in Christ. One thing that I intend to do (not sure when, but I will do it) is to seriously sit and research scriptures that condemn homosexuality and read the true meaning behind it. I often wonder what it would be like if the bible was re-created or updated today. Often times, people take the bible for literal and face value, but the word of God says, "Study to show thyself approved". What does it mean to study? According to dictionary.com to study means, "application of the mind to the acquisition of knowledge, by reading, investigation, or reflection" and that is exactly what I intend to do.


It seems to be very disturbing to me how God can use a prosperity pimp through tax collecting (Peter), a betrayer (Judas), someone who had speech problems (Moses), a WOMAN (Esther, that's for those that believe women can't preach. I refuse to believe that, especially since women were the first ones to be witnesses to Jesus' resurrection, but I digress), and various others in the bible to be vessels and carriers of his word. So, why wouldn't God use a homosexual?

Also, I want to know why is there so much emphasis about sexuality in the first place? Yes God created us as sexual beings. I mean think about it, there is an even a whole book of the bible that has sexual references (look it up for yourself), but for some reason, sexuality (depending on your association) can categorize your downfall as a human being and as a child of God. I really want to know why that is. But of course before that journey begins, I need to research sexuality as a whole. Now, I will admit I have read several times that there is a correlation between being raped (which of course is not a choice) and sexuality, which also sparks my curiosity, but what grabs my attention more is relationship between Christianity and sexuality. 


No one is perfect. But it has always been disturbing to me how some christians are quick to take up God's role of who goes to heaven and who goes to hell. If truth be told, the ones that are scared about homosexuality and the ones that are doing the condemnation are very well afraid to admit it to themselves that they are the same people...that's called self-hate but I digress. So yes, I hope to be able to a study on that one day. That vision has been in my head for a long time. I really believe that we allow the social constructs of this world to define us more than we need to. We are all guilty of it. I think freedom of the mind and spirit is the best freedom to be able to experience. My mission in life is to free the mind of ignorance, think for oneself, and not be ashamed of those thoughts. Well yep there you have it. That's my developing interest. I hope to possibly write a book about it. I don't know we'll see. Ta ta for now...TOODLES! XOXO


P.S. Maybe my next post will be about the validity of the bible...there are several things I question about it. This is why it is important to "study". 

Social Networking Causing Trouble Again

So, I had a chit chat with one of my friends the other day and she told me how one of her friendships ended over a tweet. All I could do was shake my head. I told her it's funny how she said that because I had a friendship end over a tweet that wasn't even about her. This really makes me wonder...how much power do we give to social networking? Social networking can be great. It's a good way to keep in contact with a lot of people all at one time, but for some reason, all good things have some bad to come along with it. Research studies show that websites like Facebook and Twitter have ended marriages. That's crazy! It's ridiculous to know that a facebook status can crush a relationship of years or a tweet can make friendship crumble. I sat and talked with my friend and shared my horror stories with social networking and all we could do was just simply shake our heads.

But then on the other side, it makes me wonder...maybe social networking destroying marriages, friendships, relationships, etc. might not be such a bad thing after all. If a relationship fails because of social networking websites, that just shows how weak the foundation is of that relationship. I realized that after a ridiculous fall out sometime last year (or 2 years ago...lol lost track of time). I thought it was one of those friendships that would last forever, but my shando showed me a dream some weeks before that, and well the social networking incident confirmed that. I promised myself from here on out that with significant others, I would never add them on my Facebook (if they're already on there, then maybe it's a different story...that's a bridge I'll cross when I get to it) and they can't follow me on Twitter. One ex flipped out on me because of a tweet and well clearly you see what happened...he's called an ex lol no hard feelings, I just said don't contact me anymore. But it really makes me wonder is social networking that damn powerful or are our friendships/relationships/marriages simply that weak? Let me know if you have any social networking horror stories. I'd love to read and possibly get a good chuckle from them. Ta ta for now...TOODLES!! XOXO

My World Crumbled!!!!! For All Of A Few Hours lol

WARNING!!!! THIS IS A RATCHET ENTRY!!! So please don't read it, if you don't know me like that...no seriously lol cuz you'll judge me

Okay so a lot of people (when they hear me talk about my shando) always make fun of me, but my shando is ALWAYS right lol hasn't failed me yet. (Excuse me...Ringtone by R Kelly just came on...I'm actually about to juke this chair while I'm in the library lol...anywho continuing with this story). So, I hit up my guy about some green, like I always do, and normally he responds with a quickness cuz I usually get sawbucks from him...regularly. I hit him up...and he didn't quite respond. Now I never call a person unless it's important and after 20 minutes, it became urgent so I decided to call him. He never answered. I text my friend who gets stuff from him as well and she was just as shocked (it's serious lol). So I hit up my old guy...he's pretty whack so I don't hit him up as normal. THIS NIGGA DIDN'T RESPOND TO ME EITHER. Lowkey I was afraid my phone got cut off or something, but of course it wasn't. So me and my friend discussed the possibilities of why he didn't pick up the phone, and I told her my shando feels something turrible has happened. I told her to hit up his friend to see what happened and he hit her back saying he got locked up because of gun charges. Do you know how sad I became??? lol well I was gone so I was in a mixture of laughter and two seconds later sadness...but then right back to laughter. My friend on the other hand (omg she had me crackin up) was acting like the world had ended. She was like, "I'm confused...what are we going to do now???" lmao omg I told her yep we're addicted it's official. But I was so concerned. I even had a convo with her saying I appreciated his business so much, that Hallmark needs to have a card for people like him. He always had me lol any time of the day and he was just great. Smh...but just like my title of this blog says, it only lasted for a few hours. Because of blessed and glory, I was able to get a new guy, with more potent stuff. I took 3 hits and was gone. It really took me 3 days to finish off one blunt. Boy am I a satisfied consumer. I hit him up today and he got some even better stuff for me. Yeaaah buddy! So I learned two things out of this...weeping only endures for a few hours, but joy can be found in a blunt lol okay that was turrible and the second thing I learned was...dang I seriously forgot. Oh well...lol one of my friends said I should blog about this so I did. It's really sad that me and my friend's world was destroyed for a little while, like that's terrible rotflmao I'm laughing at it now, but this was heartbreaking before. Okay I'm done lol ta ta for now! XOXO